Tuesday, March 10, 2026
RAM HORN'D
Monday, March 9, 2026
Saturday, January 10, 2026
REPLY TO IAN
WHAT LOOKS AFTER US - Nov 2018 - reposted Dec 2025
My reply to original post on Ian's blog
Ian, I don’t respond to what you write but I react to it. So here is my reaction.
Does life come to us or do we go out and fetch it?
I lived with Larry for 59 years, we adapted to each other but maintained inner experience which was unknown to the other. When I read what Larry wrote – his journal, his book, his autobiography, his letters – I realize how separate his inner experience was from what I knew of him. And, of course, I knew that he knew little of my thoughts and feeling from my perspective. As much as we might have shared experience, it meant something different to each of us. I like to say, ‘The darkness cannot impinge upon the light;’ in the same way another’s consciousness cannot impinge upon our own.
Life comes to us like a series of cars on a train – multiple cars but one train – and there are others on the train with us. But what life means to me I have to fetch; that is the part that is unknowable to anyone but God or providence who arranged it.
Wednesday, December 31, 2025
PHYSICS
https://www.youtube.com/live/wZhLnJsUMO0?si=6iUdr9-PKYqEY1wD
Sam Gladding Writing Experience - Quantum Poetics: On Physic...
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poet Amy Catanzano celebrates the Higgs in verse
"In Quantum Field Theory, things existing in the universe are conceived of as patterns of dynamic energy. The ground state of energy in the universe, the lowest possible state, is known as the quantum vacuum. It is called a vacuum because it cannot be measured directly; it is empty of "things." When we try to perceive the vacuum directly we are confronted with a "void", a background without features that therefore seems to be empty. In fact the vacuum is filled with every potentiality of everything in the universe.
"...Unseen and not directly measurable, the vacuum exerts a subtle push on the surface of existence, like water pushing on things immersed in it . ... It is as though all surface things are in constant interaction with a tenuous background of evanescent reality. ...The universe is not "filled" with the vacuum. Rather it is "written on" it or emerges out of it."
Tuesday, December 23, 2025
Paradox of "I"
My comment to Ian's Blog: The Nature of the 'I'
A special thanks for your last post Ian. I may have nothing to add but I have thoughts to share.
We are born as a little bit of protoplasm which has been differentiated from the non-living by the definition of a perimeter. That is not much to start with so things rapidly get more complex. Before separation from the mother, the cells have multiplied and organized. The senses which developed in utero begin connecting the newborn with the exterior world even before birth. The sense of being a separate individual, an “I” develops from not having control of ones comfort. Thus the dualism of the “I” and the “not I” is introduced. All sentient beings share development to this stage.
It might be said that the “I” is the awareness of being separated from the amorphous outside which provides data to the senses.
I ask how this “I” bears the image of God. Perhaps the image we bear is of the paradoxical nature of God. The paradox of the “I” is that although each is unique, yet each develops is the same way from the same material. The uniqueness must come from that original breath of life. All that follows is dénouement.
Blake delighted in exploring the paradoxical. That wisdom can come from folly, or that Eternity should find the limitation of time to be of value, impress on us the differences are reconciled by changing perspective.
Sunday, December 21, 2025
MARK RETIREMENT
Some of my closest friends treated me to a celebratory dinner Wednesday. This watercolor was done by Dr Weiling He, whom I recruited many years ago. She is now associate department head. She meant the painting to evoke the Mississippi River but it also is a memory of when we first met and we sat at a table and showed each other our sketchbooks.
Wednesday, December 10, 2025
John Bullock
John David Bullock
March 16, 1973 — November 29, 2025
Havelock
He was born on March 16, 1973, in Honolulu, Hawaii, the son of David and Lynn Bullock. John graduated as Valedictorian from Havelock High School in 1991 and then earned a bachelor’s degree in aerospace engineering from North Carolina State University in 1996.
John started his career as a civil servant supporting the US Air Force at Edwards Air Force Base in California in 1997 and worked on the C-17 airframe as a flight test engineer and flying qualities representative. He then returned to Havelock/Cherry Point MCAS in 2000 and continued his civil service career for the US Navy on the SH-60B, SH-60F, HH-60H, MH-60R and MH-60S helicopters as vibration and IMDS Lead Engineer. John’s diligence and dedication to his duties resulted in saving many lives and aircraft. His career was not just a job, but a passion to serve the fleet.
John’s defining qualities include his love of family as well as animals, especially his cat Hoosier. He enjoyed building Star Wars LEGO models, reading, and listening to all genres of music. He also devoted his spare time to researching family genealogy reaching all the way back to ancestors in England in the 1600s that owned a lighthouse. John loved to hear his mom play the piano and was even known to help arrange piano pieces for her to play at church. He was known to enjoy playing games with family including Skip-Bo and would give a loud “Ba-gock!” when playing Chicken Foot. His sense of humor was well known amongst his family and colleagues and he often played practical jokes including posting a “No Parking” sign at work with the fine being a dozen donuts.
John is survived by his parents, Patricia Lynn and David Bullock; his sister, Jennifer Hite; his nephews, Jacob, William, and Alex Hite; and his beloved extended family.
He was preceded in death by his grandparents, John and Jo Anne Suhr, and Austin and Joel Bullock.
Per John’s request, no service is planned. There will be a future musical celebration in honor of John that will share some of his favorite music and his mother playing piano.
John was truly a legend and will be deeply missed and forever remembered. In honor of him, we ask that you make a contribution to Colorectal Cancer Alliance (www.colorectalcancer.org) or the ASPCA (www.ASPCA.org). We also want to share John’s wish with you that everyone have wellness checks and get a colonoscopy as soon as your doctor recommends.
Tuesday, December 9, 2025
Monday, November 3, 2025
POLLY WRAY
Polly was 2 years old (1922) when she moved to the Children's Home. She would live at the Children's Home for the remainder of her life "....but along the way she would experience what it was to be cared for, to be a part of a family, and most importantly what it was to be loved.”
The late Rev. Robert Bradshaw, as a young man was Assistant Superintendent and also Coach at the Children’s Home. He knew Polly and tells the story of Christmas 1929. “ A housemother took Polly Wray and the other nine-year old girls to town to do their Christmas shopping. Polly Wray had 20 cents to spend.With one nickel she bought a present for her housemother; with another she bought a present for a distant aunt living in another town; with the third she bought a present for the girl whose name she had drawn in school. She had only one nickel left. Her housemother told her to buy something for herself. ’No’ said Polly. 'I want to buy Mr. Bradshaw a gift.’ And, with her last nickel, she bought a little wooden horse for Mr. Bradshaw.” This gift remained on his desk throughout his life.
That was Christmas 1929!
On August 22, 1930, Polly Wray died from blood poisoning. It is reported that move then 300 children marched through the pasture toward the Wachovia Arbor Moravian Cemetery, but because Polly Wray was not of the Moravian faith, she could not be buried in their cemetery. She is buried in a grave adjacent to the cemetery and located in the pasture. Also buried next to Polly Wray is an adult who had been a long-time employee of the Children’s Home.
Observed by Dan Jones
Friday, September 19, 2025
Thursday, September 18, 2025
JUDITH
A month before she passed away, Kema, Jason and I took the ferry to Seattle and visited her favorite bookstore and gelato shop. Our arms heavy with books and our bellies full of chocolate gelato, we took the ferry home, singing aloud all the songs we knew. Some people on the ferry looked at us, because we were making so much noise. But I think they were happy for us, and wanted to sing along. What is your memory?
Tuesday, September 16, 2025
WAR AND PEACE
War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
449
because he understood something else that the living did not and could not understand, and that entirely absorbed him.
452
In those hours of solitary suffering and half delirium that he spent afterwards, the more he passed in thought into the new element of eternal love, revealed to him, the further he travelled from earthly life. To love everything, every one, to sacrifise self always for love, meant to love no one, meant not to live this earthly life, the more completely he annihilated that fearful barrier between life and death.
453
when love for one woman stole unseen into his heart, and bound him again to life.
... It was the last mortal struggle between life and death, in which death gained the victory. It was the sudden consciousness that life, in the shape of his love for Natasha, was still precious to him, and the last and vanquished onslaught of terror before the unknown.
454
"Natasha I love you too much! More than everything in the world!
455
Love hinders death. Love is life. All , all that I understand, I understand only because I love. All is, all exists only because I love. All is bound up in love alone. Love is God, and dying means from a particle of love, to go back to the universal and eternal source of love
455-56-57
... He dreamed...by degrees all these people began to disappear, and the one thing that was left was the question of closing the door...Everything depended on whether he were on time to shut it or not...And an agonizing terror came upon him; Behind the door stood it...His last supernatural efforts were in vain...It comes in, and it is death. He died.
But at that instant he recollected that he was asleep; he made an effort and waked up. "Yes, death is an awakening," flashed with sudden light into his soul, and the veil that had till then hidden the unknown was lifted before his spiritual vision. He felt, as it were, set free from some force that held him in bondage, and was aware of that strange lightness of being that had not left him since.
that day there began for Andrey an awakening from life...he was no more...the body, deserted by the spirit, passed through its last struggles
Midsummer Night's Dream
Bottom's dream
"Methought I was—there
is no man can tell what. Methought I was,—andmethought I had,—but man is but a patched fool, if
he will offer to say what methought I had. The eye
of man hath not heard, the ear of man hath not
seen, man's hand is not able to taste, his tongue
to conceive, nor his heart to report, what my dream
was. I will get Peter Quince to write a ballad of
this dream: it shall be called Bottom's Dream,
because it hath no bottom; and I will sing it in the
latter end of a play, before the duke:
peradventure, to make it the more gracious, I shall
sing it at her death."
[10] But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.
[11] For what man knoweth the things of a man, save the spirit of man which is in him? even so the things of God knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God.
[12] Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God.
[13] Which things also we speak, not in the words which man's wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.
[14] But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.
[15] But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man.
[16] For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.
Puck (Act 5 Scene 2)
"If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended,
That you have but slumber’d here
While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme,
No more yielding but a dream,
Gentles, do not reprehend:
if you pardon, we will mend:
And, as I am an honest Puck,
If we have unearned luck
Now to ‘scape the serpent’s tongue,
We will make amends ere long;
Else the Puck a liar call;
So, good night unto you all.
Give me your hands, if we be friends,
And Robin shall restore amends."
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GOOD LIFE
Sunday, September 13, 2009
THE GOOD LIFE
Milton O. Percival in his book WILLIAM BLAKE'S CIRCLE OF DESTINY, analyzed the ideas that lie behind Blake's thinking. He finds Blake to exhibit familiar tenants of idealism. These are the ones he names:
1.) Appearances are not reality
2.) Intuition is a prime source of knowledge
3.) The mind creates the universe in its own likeness
4.) The cosmic mind corresponds to the individual mind
5.) Reality is mental
Percival adds these tenants in Blake's thought.
6.) The individual and universal minds are identical in nature
7.) The supreme experience is ecstacy
8.) The good life is unitive concerning itself in building Jerusalem
Percival describes the good life as envisioned by Blake thus:
"It requires that one make the mystical identification of oneself with others and of all with God; and that one should have faith in that identification when the immediate perception fades. ...
"The good life must be built by faith or experience, on the qualities of imagination.
To attempt to build it on the qualities of reason or sense is to reduce a god-like man to a handful of dust."
Blake in his poetry continually restates and develops these tenants. Furthermore he lived his life by these tenants in his commitment to Eternity and to the expression of Imagination.
Friday, September 12, 2025
LARRY'S LIFE
BIOGRAPHY
1st decade LIFE BEGINS
2 nd decade HIGH SCHOOL YEARS
3 rd decade CUBA VICTORY
4th decade TRANSITION
5th decade GOVERNMENT JOB
6th decade IN ARLINGTON
7th decade END OF BEGINNING
8th decade REFLECTIONS
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Another perspective. CHILD'S JOURNEY
Thursday, September 11, 2025
Ezra
E 707
Now my lot in the Heavens is this; Milton lovd me in childhood & shewd me his face Ezra came with Isaiah the Prophet, but Shakespeare in riper years gave me his hand Paracelsus & Behmen appeard to me. terrors appeard in the Heavens above
2 Esdras
4Ezra.1
4Ezra.8
[47]
For you come far short of being able to love my creation more than I love it. But you have often compared yourself to the unrighteous. Never do so!
[48]
But even in this respect you will be praiseworthy before the Most High,
[49]
because you have humbled yourself, as is becoming for you, and have not
deemed yourself to be among the righteous in order to receive the
greatest glory.
[50]
For many miseries will affect those who inhabit the world in the last times, because they have walked in great pride.
[51]
But think of your own case, and inquire concerning the glory of those who are like yourself,
[52]
because it is for you that paradise is opened, the tree of life is
planted, the age to come is prepared, plenty is provided, a city is
built, rest is appointed, goodness is established and wisdom perfected
beforehand.
[53]
The root of evil is sealed up from you, illness is banished from you,
and death is hidden; hell has fled and corruption has been forgotten;
[54]
sorrows have passed away, and in the end the treasure of immortality is made manifest.
[55]
Therefore do not ask any more questions about the multitude of those who perish.
[56]
For they also received freedom , but they despised the Most High, and were contemptuous of his law, and forsook his ways.
[57]
Moreover they have even trampled upon his righteous ones,
[58]
and said in their hearts that there is not God -- though knowing full well that they must die.
QUAKERS
This drawing of the breaking of Silence at a Quaker Meeting appeared on the
website of the Miami Meeting. I was curious about who had created the image
and wondered if it was drawn by the artist Bobby Buskirk who had formerly been
a member of Miami Meeting. Bobby's daughter, Sally Gillespie, who was my
friend in the Friends Meeting of Ocala for many years was able to confirm that
the picture was done by her mother.
Bobby and Phil Buskirk were married in Miami after Phil moved there in 1974.
It was a second marriage for both of them. Bobby's first husband Robert Slane
had died in 1972. Phil was divorced from Frances Hamer Kanzler to whom he
was married from 1942 until the early seventies. Phil and Bobby were distant
cousins and knew each other as children in Palisades, Michigan. Bobby was
born August 18, 1916 and named Rosamond Mack Clark. She and Robert Slane
parented four children, Mack, Robert, Sally and Susanna. Phil and Frances were
also the parents of four, Charles, Philip, James, and Martha.
Phil Buskirk had been a powerful spokesperson for peace, justice and reconciliation
as he worked for AFSC for many years. He held the position of Field Director for
AFSC in Israel from 1959 to 1961. Bobby became a Quaker and joined the Miami
Meeting after her marriage to Phil. She was always interested in art. She drew
pastel portraits of people and animals. She designed wood block prints, and she
painted in oil and acrylic paints.
Her love of art was passed on to her daughter Sally who became an art teacher
in public schools.
Later Phil and Bobby moved south from Miami to the town of Florida City very
near Homestead and the Everglades National Park. In 1994 extreme south
Florida was in the path of Hurricane Andrew which became the costliest storm
to hit the US up to that time. The home of Bobby and Phil was destroyed along
with 25,000 other homes in Miami-Dade County. Instead of rebuilding in south
Florida Bobby and Phil moved to higher ground in central Florida. They settled
in the small town of McIntosh 18 miles south of Gainesville. Although they
became a part of the Gainesville Friends Meeting their time in central Florida
was short. Phil died in 1995 and Bobby's death followed the next year.
know the people. She loved making up poems about people and playing word games and family games. She liked to laugh and she loved to read."
Wednesday, September 10, 2025
FOR JUDITH'S BOOK
In 2015 our friend Judith Larsen wrote Becoming Ourselves: Thirteen Conversations in which she related interviews with thriteen octogerarians. Here is some of what Larry told her.
Larry
Larry grew up in Louisiana. His father was a preacher. There is a picture of Larry, a sullen teenager, arms folded, staring at the camera in a way that says “Bring it on!” The last thing on that young man’s mind is preaching the Gospel!
Even today, Larry is counter to expectations. He speaks simply with a deep Southern accent. He talks to the man at the cash register in Wendy’s, to the folks who gather in his home on Sunday, to distinguished academics in the same down-home way. It is after you have been with him a while that you recognize his brilliance, intuition, and learning. Duke and Tulane Universities broadened his reach, but didn’t layer any social pretensions on him. He came to a crisis.
I’ll tell you how it was. I had a good job, a nice house, a nice car and everything that anybody could want. 1954-5. And it occurred to me that there wasn’t anything else – I thought to myself “Is this all?” I was kind of desperate. In desperation I prayed. That must be the first time I ever really prayed in my whole .life. “God, send me something to read.” I had heard plenty of preachers and I was always distrustful – do you really mean that or do you just throw that at us, but a few days later I was at the barber chair and a Roman Catholic young man was cutting my hair, and he started raving about Norman Vincent Peale, and he said “He’s the best there is.” I got the book and it changed my life. Positive thinking. God loves me personally. That is the whole deal.
How should he express this with his life?
I wanted to do something for God! One possibility was to be a social worker. But then my brain just tipped like that, I realized that I wanted to be a minister.
It was 1954 and he had in mind studying theology at Southern Methodist University, but he met Ellie in New Orleans and destiny took a hand. In order to be close to Ellie he attended a local Baptist seminary. From his studies:
I expected nothing and I didn’t get very much. I got a piece of paper. I needed a diploma, I needed a B.D. to be admitted into session in the church.
At first, restless Larry – now married to Ellie, with little ones on the way—tried to bind himself to a traditional minister’s role.
8 years was enough. I finally came to believe that preaching was not the way, not the thing to do. Preaching is…preaching doesn’t really help much. All the preaching to people who were already better than I was, they were glad to hear what I had to say… Here I am every Sunday, preaching to good people, and I shake hands at the door, and “Preacher, you really stepped on my leg today!” That’s supposed to be a compliment. And then they would go home and put their feet on the table and eat their chicken dinner and watch the football game.
Larry and Ellie moved to Winston Salem N.C. where Larry was attached to the court as a pastor. A number of the people he counseled were habitual drunks.
I found myself in court one day, and I asked [the court] to release these drunks. There was a whole pack of them who were continuously going in and out of the jail. [The] judge would say 30 days! 28 days they were back. 30 days! The judge was so glad to have someone try to do something for them. “Take them.” And I took about 50 of ‘em.
Larry formed the Alcohol Education Program, which operated much like Alcoholics Anonymous, with good results. The groups grew in size. When the Methodist Conference said they had a new church assignment for Larry, he asked instead for a special appointment as a probation officer. He worked hard at that, but after 10 years he began to feel infected by the mindset of the prison system.
They say “You’re not coming back,” and the guard will say “He’ll be back. Because it changes you, the criminal mind.
Larry and Ellie intended to take a trip around the country to refresh their outlook. One of the first stops was in Washington D.C. They visited the Church of the Savior, a group of Christians dedicated to good works in the city. The church’s organization around early Christian values appealed to Larry so strongly that he stayed, while Ellie returned to North Carolina to care for the children. Within 2 years the family had re-joined Larry in Washington.
You were not really a member of the Church of the Savior, you were a member of your mission group. And that was a lot of fun. One of the groups I was in, they bought the Ritz which was an old apartment building that used to have had better days, and they formed task forces to refurbish it [for the homeless].
Almost coincidentally with Larry’s arrival at Church of the Savior, though, the church began to go through “Dispersal,” which meant sending its members out into the world. At that point Larry sought a civilian job with the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency. That is when I met him – I was also an employee of the agency – never suspecting that Larry was a Methodist minister. Larry has always had a disarming, simple and direct manner that doesn’t advertise any particular social or professional status. He is that rare person whose ego doesn’t need to be supported by someone saying “Oh, you’re the pastor of the church.” He makes his own way, deciding where he needs to be, without asking for social reinforcement.
During his Washington D.C. residence, Larry and Ellie attended a Quaker Meeting, drawn to the simple gatherings and shared tasks. Later, when they moved South again first to South Carolina, and then to Florida, they worshipped in Quaker meetings, and opened their door to anyone who wished to join them in fellowship. Larry tends the sick and dying in a local hospital. He tends a William Blake blog, and is in touch through the internet with seekers all over the world. In these simple, gentle person to person ways, Larry lives, checking in with God, through prayer. Underneath the good works, however, is a radical man in the early Christian sense.
I have no home. My home is upstairs.
I worked for three institutions, but they didn’t own me.
Society is to me what it was to Dickens – he never fails to lampoon society. Society is for the birds.
I like myself. Some people like me and others don’t and that’s all right.
Most people think that you keep your wits about you, say things that people need to hear. I don’t feel like that. I have other aims in life, so I frequently say something I shouldn’t have. I have failed in many ways with my mouth.
[As for society] I’d be content for the tent to collapse. An entire shakeup. We need that, another revolution. Divine intervention.





















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